Holiday Examination

Some things happened in our life around the holidays where it was noticed that my legs were shaven.  Combine that with your typical family holidays, I.E. fighting, and left me questioning my whole choice of the sissy lifestyle.  Cuckolding is something for us, as a couple, is easy to hide to a certain degree from family but how do you hide shaven legs, the occasional panty showing or laundry seen from visiting relatives?  This made me really ponder this choice and how it affects my wife and her life.  While she is not Dom in my dressing, she is happy and long as I am happy, yet how long will that feeling last if she has to deal with the consequences of my actions?  I have recently taken to hiding into this part of my life as my escape from real life.  Some people turn to alcohol, drugs, etc.. but I have turned to sissy.  While I have never really given 2 shits about what others think, I care what my wife thinks and what my actions mean to her. 

This is not a typical sissy/crossdresser purge/mind change, I have read about but a true introspective look at how my actions effect others and how much pain and humiliation might go to my wife and not me.  For example, I would like to start carrying a purse regularly (what screams femininity like a purse right?) so I expect to draw some attention which fine if you laugh at me, but if someone was to laugh or tease my wife, I would want to rip there head off.  Cuckolding is here to stay as my wife has fallen in love (another post another time) with her BF and she really enjoys not only the sex with him but our day to day lifestyle.  There is always something weird happening but overall, I think we are happy with the cuckolding/chastity lifestyle we have.  So the question is really, what does adding sissification to this really mean?  I don't want to be in a maid dress or anything like that but I do have a desire for all things feminine. These are just some small steps to enhance the humiliation of chastity/cuckolding.  So here I am trying to sort all these thoughts out in a non-horny environment to figure what is best.  Any real life experience people might have would be appreciated.